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Monday, May 6, 2013

I'M AFRAID

I'M AFRAID!
This is a No Picture blog.  
I need to write this for ME, to vent, to put my fear in words, and hopefully, deal with my fear.
Indulge ME.

I have NEVER EVER been afraid to stay by myself in over 40 yrs.  All those times when #1 husband was flying all over the country playing college football...I wasn't afraid.  All those late night football practices...I wasn't afraid.  All those football recruiting trips...I wasn't afraid.  All those week long coach's clinics while  home alone with 3 little ones...I wasn't afraid.  All those week-end Fishing trips...I wasn't afraid.  All those nights keeping loved ones in the hospital...I wasn't afraid.
Why then...am I suddenly afraid?

I think it may have something to do with the 2 Break-Ins in the last few years....  Especially the Robbery back in the fall.  I am angry for having my security invaded and my sense of safety taken away.  The thugs who stole our TV, guns, prescriptions, jewelery , etc...got STUFF to buy drugs...I got my freedom stolen!

So...
Last night, my 2 grandsons spent the night while #1 husband went on an overnight fishing trip.  I'm angry at myself for allowing those thugs to steal my freedom.  I want it back!  Just when I think I'm over my fear, another incident such as  happened this week will surface and I'm back to square 1.

Wednesday, I was home alone.  I assumed our new entrance gate was closed.  In my sewing room upstairs I hear an unusual sound like a motorcycle coming up my driveway.  Knowing #1 was at football practice and the gate was closed, I ran to the front window to see no one BUT the gate open.  I ran back to my sewing room window only to see a young man sitting on his motorcycle in my back yard looking around, surveying the place. I Immediately yanked the window up & asked him what he was doing.  I got some garbled words about wanting to buy my husband's truck to needing work.  I suggested he come back at 8 in the morning to talk to my husband (stupid response, I know) and that's when he asked to borrow $20 for gas.  The hair stood up on the back of my neck and every red flag in my brain was waving, "Tell him to leave, Tell him to leave."  MT (Motorcycle Thug) left but he took a little piece of my sense of security with him.

Thursday evening, #1 is at football practice.  BTW, MT never showed up at 8:00...go figure.  I'm home alone AGAIN, it's 7:00 p.m., gate is closed. all doors are locked, and all of a sudden I hear  HUGE BANGING at my back door.
Yep, it's Motorcycle Thug! 
 But he's with Motorcycle Thug #2.  
I don't open the door but MT #1 begins giving me some sob story about his brother having been in a super bad car accident and he had been at the hospital all night/day so that was supposed to explain him not showing up at 8:00 (Yeah, sure)  I tell MT my husband has already hired someone, all the time my heart pounding out of my chest and praying, "Dear God, keep me safe."
Well, after sitting on their motorcycle for about 15 minutes, MT #1 & MT #2 drive off but not before casing out my husband's large building out back.  I turn the dogs lose and my MT #1 & #2 race off into the night!


The next time Motorcycle Thug shows up at my door, I WILL meet him at the door with my loaded shotgun.
I know how to use it and I WILL USE it!

I'm AFRAID
BUT...
I'm not going to go down without a fight!

Thank you for allowing me time and a place to vent.






34 comments:

  1. I understand. I'll tell you though, when he showed up with a friend tonight, I would have been on the phone with 911 reporting 2 suspicious men at my door one of whom you caught casing the house earlier. If he shows up again, don't meet him at the door with a shotgun, you don't need to deal with the aftermath of that. Call the police. They'll take care it. Be careful. Take care of yourself. . . .

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  2. Goodness! Maybe you should call the police anyway and report the strangers at your door. Maybe someone else has already reported them in the area.

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  3. Remember we teach the little ones not to speak to strangers - I agree with dawn, no talk, no gun - call 911. I would also report these incidents with your local sherif so they can keep an eye on these two - if they get the locals following them around, they will leave the area.

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  4. I hope you called the police and reported them. If not you should do that as soon as possible. They may have received other calls about the same thugs.
    If the authorities know about this they will come by and check on you.

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  5. The more you talk the more they will try. Call 911.

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  6. Menina nada de armas,chame a polícia.Fique bem.

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  7. Be sure to report both incidents to the police now. The police will probably drive by a little more often and if the thugs return, a 911 call will bring them in a hurry. Take care! ~Jeanne

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  8. Yeah, that sounds really scary but I never would have talked with the guy in the first place. I agree with calling the police. Public safety is THEIR job.

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  9. OMG, please stay safe, is there anyone that can stay with you and definitely call the police, get the local sheriff's number they might be faster at responding.

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  10. I am so sorry - prayers for your safety & wisdom handling the situation!

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  11. Yes that is scary but most definitely you should call the police. The entire thing worries me a lot. If they come back try to get their picture or a picture of their license plates, you can do that safely from inside the house, but make sure you call the police first. It sounds like they are definitely up to no good.

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  12. "You are trespassing and the police are on their way" is all you should say. I would say it while I was holding the shotgun, too, but that's an individual choice. Just remember that can't point or fire at someone just because you're scared, and that actually shooting someone opens you up to a whole passel of troubles of your own and shouldn't be taken lightly. Hugs.

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  13. My Dad told my Mom, "Don't open the door, just shoot right through it!" I think he would tell you the same thing. I would also alert the police to this and tell them that you feel very threatened.

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  14. I agree with gpc. Call the police, announce that you have called them, and have your shotgun ready. I don't know how your state views the Castle Doctrine; it might be good to find out.

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  15. Wow...I don't blame you for being scared! Last week I had these two young men come to my door at 9:05pm. wanting me to open the door and talk to them about my gas bill...they would want to convince me to switch my gas over to their company. Now I live in a suburb with other houses, and it was dark out, and I was alone, and I looked out my window and told them NO THANK YOU. They laughed at me and wanted to still talk to me. I told them to leave. They stood there. I TOLD them to get off my porch, and they stood there. They laughed again. Very slowly they moved off the porch and stood at the end of the porch. Then in 15 more minutes 2 more guys came for the same thing. I called the police after the first two left and the police were rude to me and told me there was no law they broke, and that they could come to my door to sell at any hour!!! No restrictions!!! The police said they would not investigate these guys because they had broken no laws. I said if they came at midnight that would be okay, and the Police said YES! I was very very upset! I can only imagine how you felt with even stranger circumstances. I'm praying for your peace and for these guys to NEVER come back!!! Get a Rottweiller dog! LOL ♥♥♥

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  16. Oh, Call the police and fire a report about the incident, just in case you have to use that gun! ♥♥

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  17. I agree! Call the police when you hear them b/c chances are next time they will get bolder. The shotgun barrel aimed out the window isn't a bad idea either.

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  18. Oh Jane! How scary. You have gone on my prayer list.So please know that Gods angels are watching out for you.(I hope you don't mind,)

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  19. What an awful story I hope that this will never happen again. And I understand that you are scared. We have similar incidents in Sweden too, the difference is that we are not allowed to have shot guns at home. The authorities are very strict about given permissions to buy shot guns. The best advise is to be careful and get a rottweiler dog.

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  20. I am so sorry you are scared! We had our shed broken into a few years back and now have a security system. Hate to feel unsafe in my home! I am now a gun owner and I am wiht teh others to call the police and have your gun loaded!
    Will keep you in my prayers!

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  21. Here at home 911 will be too late. Living out in God's land certainly is a glue for intruders. I have had men knock on my door and I do not answer the door to no one at all when home alone. Unless I know your heading out to the Ponderosa (AKA Home). Then they cased out my DH shop and all his tools and tractor. What I should of done is shoot off my shot gun and then some and make them run for the hills. I do not like guns, but one shot will make a statement, then me in jail for shooting. A truck full of thugs. I have had my home rob once and it was not a good feeling. My security was rob from me. Be safe Grandma Jane....Judith, Texas

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  22. As I have gotten older I have learned to trust my gut feelings about people and incidents and I am guessing your instincts in this situation are correct. I would call and talk to the police just to be on the safe side, that is part of their job to take care of the good people and listen to their concerns. Anytime I have contacted the police I have never been told that I was bothering them, mostly it has been I should never hesitate to call. If these guys are casing out your place I would be willing to bet they may have visited other places in your area and the police may already be aware of them. Your report would definitely give them more information on these guys. I don't blame you for being scared especially after your house having been broken into before. I also no longer feel that I have to answer the door every time the doorbell rings and many times I just ignore it if I don't know who it is. Stay safe and I will say a prayer for your safety.

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  23. You have every right to be angry and frustrated. We cannot allow our freedom or sense of security to be taken from us. I agree..you must call the police and let them know what has happened. Do you have any security camera's near your gate or door that could photograph intruders? If they are bothering your home they are most likely looking at other homes in your area. I will be holding you in prayer--Prayers for your peace and comfort.

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  24. Jane I am so sorry this has happened to you , I know what that fear is like. I agree that you should talk to police just in case and like you I would keep that gun handy. i sent you my phone number did you get it? I want yours to. I pray that God will keep you safe. Blessings Sandra

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  25. I sent you an email and I see your other friends are as concerned as I am! You are in my prayers call the police or sheriff's office!

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  26. That is scary! Can you put a lock or alarm on your gate? I would definitely file a report with the police so there is a record. Maybe those college football players can practice at your house for a while? Best wishes!

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  27. I'm with the others - please call the police and tell them what has happened! Thugs might be stalking others in your neighborhood as well and need to be caught. ~hugs~

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  28. Arm yourself with #1 a phone call before ever speaking to them. #2 a camera and be sure to get a photo! #3 yes your trusty gun (and I am NOT a gun person...but)

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  29. Get yourself a security camera, a phone dialed to 911 and TELL them that, and show them your gun from upstairs in the quilting room. We would hate to lose you.

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  30. Hi Grandmama Jane, Do you have an update? I don't know you, but I've been praying for you since I read your post and basically worrying about you!

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  32. No need to worry about being afraid - assume that it's your 6th sense telling you to be aware and be concerned - not afraid. I do think your first reaction should be to CALL the police, then you can say something to them if necessary. If they are there under perfectly normal circumstances, they will not be offended if the police check them out. If under dubious circumstances, they'll be on notice that you're not standing for their garbage! If the gate is closed, and they've breached that, call the police.
    We had a breakin a couple of years ago so I do understand your trepidation and the feelings you have. We did have a security system installed and that really does make a person more relaxed. It might be something you'd want to check into. Can the gate be rigged so that whenever it opens an alarm sounds so you know someone has opened it?
    I do think (if you haven't already) you should call the police and let them know this same information - even now. They may be waiting for someone to call in with some concrete information about vehicles/descriptions. I would NOT trust those guys with the phoney stories any further than I could throw them.

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  33. You have no need to afraid . .This is just a fear in your mind nothing else . You just need to through out fear from your mind,You will be alright..

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